I had an awesome chat with Kenneth.
All thanks to him, i really learn alot. Phew.

Not going to think so much
Just look at our example:
1. God
2. Pastor Kong
3. Pastor Mingjing
4. Our CGL
Safeguard your heart, and out of it springs the issue of life
Dont keep these thoughts in your heart
Sometimes, some things is you decide on your own
When you say you want, God will give you
Ask and it shall be given
When you receive a vision, God will give you provision
When you say you want, God surely will train you to be one
Only those who can look away from my flaws can stand close to me
God have His ways of doing things
He moves when you move
Sometimes, its about humbling ourselves
Action is louder than words and sometimes doing is easier than thinking
And sometimes thinking stressed you up more.

PHEW. These are all Kenneth's advice for me.
Awesome, so glad that i've got such a brother who's there for me. (:
Thanks Kenneth! (;
Your advices are most appreciated! (:

ALSO! Yongzhou! Wrote on my FB wall.

Yong Zhou Nothingisimpossible pastor kong say before You never know how strong you are until being strong is the only choice you have. "Let the weak say, I am STRONG" (Joel 3:10
And no matter what happen you will not be alone. God is there for you, and he give you a gift, that is a family, your cell group, they is always there for you. in Acts 18:9 ...Now the Lord spoke to paul in the night by a vision, "Do not be afraid, but speak, and do not keep silent;
Act 18:10 "for i am with you, and no one will attack you to hurt you; for i have many people in this city."
God have many people in the city, and the city have a family for you that is your cell group, those leader is always there for u, do not be afraid to tell them just give them a call, speak it out to them, remember that do not keep silent. and if you never say out no one will know how to help you. And do not think that they could not help. cause there is nothing impossible for god. and Pray for peace =) grace i know you can do it! you wont so easy to fall.

WOW, isn't it awesome, haha!
Thanks for encouraging me. (;
Appreciated. ;D

Lastlyyyy, thank GOD! :D

People change so you learn to move on, life goes by so you may learn to appreciate it more, and sometimes bad things happen so that good things may take their place.

True? Not true? Whatever.

Like what Pastor Kong has preached last night.
That God wants me to have a deeper change.
Thus, now He's working deeply on me.
This timing is the molding-of-my-character-time.

For the past few days, i don't know what is wrong.
I just don't feel like contacting anyone.
I just want to let everything go.
Thoughts of not going to church anymore, don't want to see the people in church, etc.
I thought that i was affected by brother.
But no, today i then realised that i wasn't affected by anyone.
It's just myself.

As i begin to think of what i've done last night, flaws begin to show.
This is the major one.
I should learn how to shut up. Talk when necessary.
I don't know why. Always, i'm like this.
Talk and talk and talk only.
Like never talk, i'll lose a piece of myself or even die.
I wonder, if i never talk, what will happen?
It's impossible for me to shut up. HOW.

I believe that i will come back stronger.
I will let God do what He wants to me, letting Him have His way in my life.
But for now, i think i need a break. From everything.
I don't know why, i just got disgusted by the people who are living two lives.
It's so different... In church and outside of church.
That person might be leading a group, or not, but.. It's just human nature.
Huge impact.

During cellgroup yesterday, Minqi preached about joy.
I always got the joy in me.
But from the past few days, it was gone.
She preached that Christians are happy people.
I agree, because i was one of them.
BUT. I thought of it. If Christians are happy people, why are there still some who are emo-ing at one corner, having negative thoughts?
Ain't this too contradicting?

Sigh, i don't know. I don't feel the same anymore.
I really need a break. From the world, friends, everything.
Shut up and let me do the things that i want.

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Woots, got back my results. (:
Had a shock, but thank God for my results.
It's through Him that i can get this results.
Really thank God for what He has done in my life.
Wooohoooooo! :DDDDD

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Long long longgggggggggggg sister-ship with Winnie C.W.Y.
3 years already. Woots!
Yeah, read your post for me, wahahahah!
I'm so sorry for this super late post okay, heeeeeeeeeeee!



Yeah, remembered those days~
Every weekend will surely go out.
Dunno how we spent our time in the past.
Crazy us, somemore got trained by you to always be-ready-for-camera.
OHMAN!
But thanks to you, because... UNGLAM-ness not that much. WAHAHAHAHAHAH!
Okay, if i were to state everything out, it'll be super duper long. =x

I love you sister! (: